The monster within me

So I didn't know I was secretly rearing a monster in me. Infact I had no clue of it's existance until one fine day it decided to show up when I least expected it. I was taken aback and could not explain it to myself or people around me. It decided to make it's presence felt every single minute of the day , when I walk , talk , bend , carry heavy things. It brought me such inexplicable pain that there was no other way of venting out other than crying. I confided into friends and family. Friends showed concern and suggested remedies. family rushed me to the doctor and apart from a few nuts who suggested things like surgery , most said that this can be tamed by regular exercise. I also found out that this monster's activities were directly proportional to the amount of stress I take. All was well after taking medication and doing regular exercise. A couple of months passed and things became more hectic in my work life. With time barely to eat and sleep I neglected my exercise. Completely my fault. And the monster came back. Again. The difference however this time was that friends , family , colleagues did not show that kind of concern. It was my fault after neglecting my exercise but I did not need to hear their yellings or false pity or the standard dialogue "oh it's back is it?why so" . Yeah that's a question I would love the answer to. My point is I am the one living with the pain , aware of it every single minute of the day it occurs and my life only becomes tougher when I have to deal with dialogues such as "at such a young age , it shouldn't come" . Thank you for the gyaan. I wasn't aware of it !!! So save me the pity and save me the rantings , I can do without them , Thank you very much !!!! The question remains as to where do i get the strength to deal with this monster , because I have no option but to deal with it. I learn to tame it. Be more sincere towards myself and my health. Not neglect myself , and inspite of all this if it still tends to recur , distract myself with the things that give me happiness. I have a strong belief that this monster will leave me. Why do I think that? My good sense , the same good sense which reassures me when I'm lost or in low spirits , lifts me up tells me that all will be  well and I will be rid of this in no time.

IT'S A VIRGO THING !!!

So I have noticed that I am peculiar like really peculiar !! Certain traits of mine are so inexplicable that I am at a loss to understand the way I am that I am. I have finally come to the conclusion that it's a virgo thing. I know Linda Goodman gives a rather flattering account of how virgos are and flattered as I am I don't quite agree with her. She says we are rather orderly people. I look around my room and it's a mess. She says we are stickler for cleanliness , uh huh....! We may not be orderly literally but our lives scream of order and method. Our maniacal brain keeps working overtime in categorizing work , friends and family. We DO NOT like random , casual stuff. Everything which happens has to happen for a reason and has to have a definite logic behind it. If it doesn't we do not sleep in the night. We do not like loud people , we do not understand them so we stay away from them , we LOVE crazy people because underneath every serious virgo there is a crazy person and we HATE twisted people because we do not know any other way than being straightforward. We love funny people because we literally thrive on wit and humour . Believe me if we virgos weren't humorous we probably would have died out of nervous breakdowns(So I am getting to sound a bit like Linda Goodman here) The entire point of this blog was to show off my peculiarity. SO I will recount a story here. The other day I was to return to college after a 3 day spell at home and my clothes were sent to the laundry. That day being a holiday the laundry was closed. Now a normal person's reaction would have been 'Oh the laundry's closed , too bad , I will collect my clothes the next time I come home.' My reaction was ' I will threaten , shout do anything and everything in my power to get my clothes back TODAY ITSELF' !! And believe me that's what I did. I got hold of the laundry man's number and kept stalking him like calling him every 5 minutes till he had to cut down his stay at his relative's house to come back and give my clothes. I was prepared to even go to his house to get hold of my clothes. Yes I was that paranoid. And the sane me recognizes this as an abnormal trait but my virgo brain has an answer to it.... It's a virgo thing after all , we are the way we are :) :)