So I didn't know I was secretly rearing a monster in me. Infact I had no clue of it's existance until one fine day it decided to show up when I least expected it. I was taken aback and could not explain it to myself or people around me. It decided to make it's presence felt every single minute of the day , when I walk , talk , bend , carry heavy things. It brought me such inexplicable pain that there was no other way of venting out other than crying. I confided into friends and family. Friends showed concern and suggested remedies. family rushed me to the doctor and apart from a few nuts who suggested things like surgery , most said that this can be tamed by regular exercise. I also found out that this monster's activities were directly proportional to the amount of stress I take. All was well after taking medication and doing regular exercise. A couple of months passed and things became more hectic in my work life. With time barely to eat and sleep I neglected my exercise. Completely my fault. And the monster came back. Again. The difference however this time was that friends , family , colleagues did not show that kind of concern. It was my fault after neglecting my exercise but I did not need to hear their yellings or false pity or the standard dialogue "oh it's back is it?why so" . Yeah that's a question I would love the answer to. My point is I am the one living with the pain , aware of it every single minute of the day it occurs and my life only becomes tougher when I have to deal with dialogues such as "at such a young age , it shouldn't come" . Thank you for the gyaan. I wasn't aware of it !!! So save me the pity and save me the rantings , I can do without them , Thank you very much !!!! The question remains as to where do i get the strength to deal with this monster , because I have no option but to deal with it. I learn to tame it. Be more sincere towards myself and my health. Not neglect myself , and inspite of all this if it still tends to recur , distract myself with the things that give me happiness. I have a strong belief that this monster will leave me. Why do I think that? My good sense , the same good sense which reassures me when I'm lost or in low spirits , lifts me up tells me that all will be well and I will be rid of this in no time.
